New blog, same old feelings. I'm 42 years old already, and ever since I was at school I have felt bored, trapped and suffocated. Bored. Trapped. Suffocated. Not in relationships, far from it, I am loyal and want to hold on tight to my dear friends and precious family for all eternity. No, it's the place I go to day after day, the workplace, or school as it was then, the same old shite that I am obliged to do according to somebody else's schedule every weekday, those dull days from Monday to Friday, that drives me insane.Even if I had a really great job - and the one I'm in does have a lot of plus points - I'd still feel it: bored, trapped and suffocated. My head aches, I frown, my shoulders are hunched and my heart is filled with the sadness of wasting days of my life doing things I don't want to do. I'm 42 already, for heaven's sake, life is short!
What's wrong with me? All those millions out of work and I'm feeling ungrateful for the job I have. I'm a terrible employee. Unemployable, someone once joked. I've worked for myself before, you see, and I know how much I loved it. But things happened and life moved on and somehow I've ended up back in a job, back to square one, with the same old feelings chewing at my brain and making me into a moody, bad-tempered old bitch.
Oh dear! Would going back to nature be out of the question?
ReplyDeleteI am on long term sick leave because of my chemo etc. I feel bored by NOT going to work. Maybe if you are working from home you are not getting enough company from other adults.
ReplyDeleteI think the grass is always greener on the other side!
Nuts in May
I agree with Maggie... the grass is always greener... and then there is the lottery!! ;0)
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